Rain

The temperature this morning started in the  high 50's, and it's dropping through the day.  Everything is so lush and green outside, I just wish it would stay in the 60's or 70's.  Everyone bitches and whines about the weather and I'm no different.  But I've come to the conclusion that  this is the most reluctant Spring I've seen in quite awhile.

My husband has a cold and stayed home from work today.  He saw the doctor in the afternoon and he does have a sinus infection.  However the doctor also said he found a polyp in his sinuses.  This is not a complete surprise because he's been complaining about "rocks" in his nose for awhile.  And he uses a steroid nasal spray because of frequent nosebleeds.  Next step is to see an ear/nose/throat specialist to check out the polyp.  Ordinarily I wouldn't be too concerned, but he's a cancer survivor.  It naturally makes you automatically think: OH SHIT IT'S CANCER AGAIN!  I swear I'm not going to get caught up in this vicious cycle of fear and nervousness again.  After hearing of a friend recently who had a nagging cough since January, and was being treated but it wasn't getting better, so of course they kept testing, and now he knows he has cancer in both lungs and his liver, it begins to feel inevitable that we're all going to get eaten up by that nasty disease.  Maybe not ALL of us but many of us.  I've come to accept that it's a fact of life for those of us in our 50's.  We hear it all the time, whether it's a friend, or a friend of a friend, somebody at church, etc. But you can't live your life constantly looking over your shoulder, waiting for a pie to be delivered right to your face that is filled with bad things.

Now that I think about it, since I started posting to this blog, each entry has been pretty much one downer after another.  Am I preoccupied with desolate stories?!  Am I only able to talk about negative things?  Sweet Jesus I hope not. Assignment for tomorrow and the days to come: find something fun and light-hearted to talk about.  Puppies, babies, flowers, etc.